I love you to the moon and back. Three days to the moon and three days back (rough estimate). A love limited to six days. Surrounded by beginnings and ends, we’re quick to terminate commitments that entail ‘commitment’. Reason why an unconditional love from an invisible Father seems fictional. Not knowing it is the realest feeling you’ll ever experience.
I write this admitting it’s not easy. My doubt overwhelms me often. Questions attack my mind with darts of unworthiness. Unbelief makes a home in my heart and running away is a feeling too familiar. [But grace] fights back and pulls me out. The reality is that our flesh will always try to be greater than our need of God. We will rather submit to the sins that slowly kill than to live by the Spirit that kills our flesh. That is why I choose to die every day (1 Corinthians 15:31). For it is in the death of my flesh that I can find life.
Spirit or Flesh?
The gospel calls us to freedom; the ability to choose either eternal satisfaction or a temporary, empty one. The choice we make depends on how we’re being led and knowing that we’re not called to do this on our own. Jesus made sure, even after His resurrection, we understood that the Holy Spirit would be within us to lead and empower us. To do HIS WILL.
In Galatians 5: 16-18 Paul tells us to walk by the spirit so we don’t indulge in the desires of the flesh. Reminding us that the desires of the flesh and the desires of the Spirit are opposed to each other [to keep us from doing the things we want to do]. However, one of the greatest reminders in these verses is that being led by the Spirit means we are not under the law! We are under grace brothers and sisters! We are under LOVE.
God sees our entire life laid before Him and in leaving the Holy Spirit to lead us, He seeks to keep us from harm. We don’t see it with the naked eye but even a decision that is not ‘bad’ is enough to drift us away from the path He has for us. To live following the ways of the world means to be dead in our transgressions and sins (Ephesians 2:1). But our God, being rich in mercy and having great love for us, made us alive with Christ (Ephesians 2:5). That means not in your will, but under the covering of the Spirit. He tells us that by nature we deserve wrath but because of His love we receive grace.
It’s all about love
“I love you” is given with terms and conditions. You mess this up, this contract is terminated.
God’s love says (Ephesians 2:8-9) that by grace we have been saved, through faith. A gift of God that is not received by our works but simply as we extend our hands and receive it. I encourage you to make a decision to live differently. Let the Spirit lead you as you live by faith in Jesus. The one who loved you without question, giving his life for you and to this day is still walking by your side.
Rest in the promises of God!
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