One of the greatest struggles I’ve had coming to Christ is fully understanding the identity that He has given women. Dominican-born, Miami-raised, surrounded by Latina women that will raise their voice as swords against any feeling of inferiority. Told that I was to leave a man for a better option if it got too difficult, or better yet, leave my options open in case plan A didn’t work. Surrounded by lessons that taught to perceive my body as my property so how I chose to use or flaunt it was my right. Labeling myself as a free-spirit when it was truly in chains.
As I read about Abigail I’m confronted with myself. Her name meaning my Father is my joy/source of my joy, virtuous, sweet character, wise and beautiful. All great characteristics that include Nabal, a perverse, harsh, evil, wicked, foolish man that can’t be reasoned with. In my head I think: leave him, you can do better, you don’t need him. But there is something greater. God’s plan; to show the power of His grace upon her life. Power that helped overcome a difficult relationship while not allowing her to become bitter or unforgiving. To make a long story (1 Samuel 25) short, it was the wisdom and humility in Abigail’s words that spared the life of Nabal and his people, when his own foolishness caused anger in David. As she bowed down and fell at David’s feet she could have looked after her own interests without consideration of what could happen to her wicked husband. Instead, she asked for forgiveness, reminded David of the goodness of the Lord and waited for justice to be done by God himself. She could have yelled at Nabal, left him, and easily been forgiven by David but all she did was bow down.
Nabal was struck to death after his heart failed and he became like stone. Abigail became David’s wife. Her response; “She bowed down with her face to the ground and said, “I am your servant and am ready to serve you and wash the feet of my lord’s servants.”
I could be a woman that stands for what she wants with harsh words, tough personality and “leave when it gets hard” attitude. But that would take away from the blessing it is to be a kindhearted woman who gains honor.. (Proverbs 11:16). Sometimes when you get so beat up by norms, standards, prejudice, and foolish words, you start to believe that the only way to achieve respect is to fight back with a tougher attitude. I’ve learned from Abigail, and the women that God chose to be in Jesus’ lineage, that the best way to fight back is by bowing down. In that attitude of humility before the Lord, and not men, we will seek the highest honor; to be seen and fought for.
Con toda mi Alma.