Darlin Co

SOL

Darlin Co
SOL

Myself: Genesis Beatrice Asencio Rodriguez. Born in January ’97 in Allentown, Pennsylvania My mother was born in Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic and my father in Brooklyn, New York; his parents are Ecuadorian and French/Spanish. I feel and identify mostly as Dominican. My house is occupied with two of my five siblings, my maternal grandparents, my beautiful mami and myself. I was raised and currently reside in Miami, Florida and attend Florida International University as a third year accredited student currently pursuing a Liberal Studies degree. 

I see. I’ve seen sweetness, and bitterness. I’ve tasted innocence and have seen it ripped from my hands. I’ve understood family and watched it crumble. But most importantly, I’ve held God’s hand and He grasped mine and has since never let me go. We have all had our share of the world’s fruit and it’s power against us. 

I’ve recently become an active voice for body positive outlooks and for self-love. I’ve seen how recently my body has changed, and not exactly in correlation with society’s acceptable trends, but I see myself now for who I am. Radiant. I see my curls changing shape, and my skin shining free from a mask. I see my hips grow further apart, and my thighs increase in volume. I see scars stretched around the side of my hips, and my arms growing plump. I see my temple’s curvature morph perfectly circular. I also see my weight increasing and I feel like what I eat multiplies by 3 once its inside me, and my body not metabolizing simply because it doesn't feel like it. I feel men’s compliments as whispers, nearly dead silent. I felt ‘pretty” was something I told myself more than what I heard from stranger’s lips. I see now, that these are lies in which I do have control over. 

I lived most of my life seeking identity from the minds that surrounded me; many artists, creatives in general, lovers, peace-makers, and those that embody humor. I see that, that makes a big part of who I am. But I know that these words didn't fulfill every inch of my being. I see grace and faith, coming from the tongue of a women who saw nothing before. I see that I seek Him, before I seek for my will. I see difference, a changing heart due to the one who’s heart broke for me. 

Siempre mirando al Sol stemmed from a deep rooted desire I held and still very much long for. I hope to always look to Him through the loudness of life, I contemplated this a few days ago and was inspired to write about myself. I’ve been feeling somewhat weak lately, more like defeated. I noticed that no matter what, the sun always shined and its strength always touched my skin somehow. I’m blessed. I’ve lived to see only a portion of God’s artwork, and will continue to pursue that. I’m blessed. I’ve understood my value as a woman in my youth and am able to never lower His standards for my life. I’m blessed, to have the majority of my health, and to not let my body’s weakness become my identity. I’m blessed to be able to share my words with you all. 

 

Viviré siempre mirando hacia’l Sol